What makes us think we know where we are going and when?
Is it because we are the schedulers? The ones who sign everyone up. Put things on the calendar. Figure out the logistics.
Or maybe it is easier when you have a vague notion of the
path you should be on.
Graduate high school. Check.
Join the military. Check.
Graduate college. Check.
Go to law school. Check.
Even the unexpected comes in there -
Get deployed to Iraq for 18 months. Okay, didn’t know that was going to happen, but get through the deployment. Check.
Get married. Check.
Finish law school. Check. Check.
Get a job. A house. Kids. Check. Check. Check.
Perhaps it’s just that you’re plodding along on what seems
like a successive path, so it feels like you have some control over where you’re
going.
When an unexpected death rocks your very soul, changes your existence, wipes away years of plans and dreams and the future you thought was laid out for you – the idea that you’re in control of anything goes with your loved one.
Your focus gets narrowed down to the next minute, hour, day.
You can’t see much farther ahead than that and frankly, don’t want to. You have
no idea what you’re supposed to do now. Who you are. Where you belong.
It makes you live much more in the present. Here. Today. Now.