In November, I wrote an essay for a writing class and surprised myself when I declared that I would be working from home for the foreseeable future. I did not have a job at the time, but I felt in my heart that this was a decision that needed to be made. Something I needed to say out loud. Another shift in my existence, but a good one, that will...
Read MoreIf you’ve been following along by now you know I’m a believer, relying on faith in the darkest moments. I don’t know how people walk through tragedy without a relationship with Jesus. Clearly, it doesn’t make you immune from the pain and struggles of life, but when you fix your eyes on the One who knows what lies ahead and sees you in the lonely,...
Read MoreI've been looking back at the last year and half of this grief journey and I've noticed a few things. Here's one - after my husband died unexpectedly and I became an instant single-parent to our three young kids, people stopped telling me things. If a friend or someone we knew was going through a difficult time, no one told me. It was like they...
Read MoreToday should be Adam’s 42nd birthday. But, he never got to turn 41. It seems like the right day to announce something I’ve been working on over the last year. Our family has been blessed by the kindness of many since Adam died. The support from law enforcement, family and friends, military veterans, and the generous community we live in has been...
Read MoreCarve out space at the start of your day to spend with God. When you’re grieving the loss of a spouse, a career, your identity, the future as you once knew it – this is an essential addition to your daily routine. My old life doesn’t exist anymore. I’m home now, no longer rushing to get everyone out of the house and off to work like I used to. My...
Read MoreI’m learning to say yes. To opportunities that come up. To things that scare me. Atomic Habits author James Clear recently posted: “Lucky opportunities tend to be stumbled upon, not handed out.
Read MoreIt has been hard to find joy in anything since Adam died. These last many months have been something I’ve had to walk through. There is no shortcut. No way around the days and hours and minutes that I now live on without Adam. I was given this sign by a dear friend - “Live every day until you are alive
Read MoreLet me tell you where I’m at. Just here. Taking stock of life, my uncertain future, and the whiskey collection I inherited after the sudden, very unexpected death of my husband in 2021. My life is unrecognizable from a year ago. Who I am, what I’m doing, where I’m going – all of the major constants we strive for in life – were knocked off solid...
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