In November, I wrote an essay for a writing class and surprised myself when I declared that I would be working from home for the foreseeable future. I did not have a job at the time, but I felt in my heart that this was a decision that needed to be made. Something I needed to say out loud. Another shift in my existence, but a good one, that will...
Read MoreIf you’ve been following along by now you know I’m a believer, relying on faith in the darkest moments. I don’t know how people walk through tragedy without a relationship with Jesus. Clearly, it doesn’t make you immune from the pain and struggles of life, but when you fix your eyes on the One who knows what lies ahead and sees you in the lonely,...
Read MoreThe slog of winter, bad weather, and more things on your plate than can be accomplished can keep a day feeling gray. I’ve been trying to train myself to notice the sparkle in each day. At least one thing that brings a little glimmer of hope, of fun, of joy. On Saturday, we had 3 hockey games on the calendar and I wasn’t looking forward to...
Read MoreNot just any bracelets, but pieces that remind them of their faith, their strength, or their loved one. I received these beautiful Bel Koz Haiti bracelets from friends at different times since losing Adam. Such a fun surprise to find one in the mail on days I needed
Read MoreAs we enter the season of giving, it can be a real challenge to find a gift for someone dealing with loss. A friend going through a hard time. Anyone walking in difficult circumstances. My kids and I received journals from sweet friends after losing Adam. Colorful, personalized journals that came with endless options of erasable pens. My kids...
Read MoreI've been looking back at the last year and half of this grief journey and I've noticed a few things. Here's one - after my husband died unexpectedly and I became an instant single-parent to our three young kids, people stopped telling me things. If a friend or someone we knew was going through a difficult time, no one told me. It was like they...
Read MoreToday should be Adam’s 42nd birthday. But, he never got to turn 41. It seems like the right day to announce something I’ve been working on over the last year. Our family has been blessed by the kindness of many since Adam died. The support from law enforcement, family and friends, military veterans, and the generous community we live in has been...
Read MoreCarve out space at the start of your day to spend with God. When you’re grieving the loss of a spouse, a career, your identity, the future as you once knew it – this is an essential addition to your daily routine. My old life doesn’t exist anymore. I’m home now, no longer rushing to get everyone out of the house and off to work like I used to. My...
Read MoreWhen you lose your spouse, the person you built your entire life and family with, everything is hard. But oh, the holidays. They are their own special kind of hard. Fall kicks off a difficult lineup of event after event. So many traditions and memories. So much work keeping it all
Read MoreThis one was hard. I was fine collecting all the bottles and moving them downstairs, taking the pictures and arranging the shelves. But making that video reel and putting it out there. It was hard.
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